Doing It Afraid

I’m the type of person that loves me a plan lol which is good for the most part but I have also realized that Gods plan is always better and he has way much more better things planned for me then what I had planned. Don’t get me wrong its good to have a plan & be prepared but what I am saying is don’t get so caught up in having things happen your way, that you don’t allow for greater things.

In the journey of becoming an influencer & entrepreneur. I’ve had to take quite a few risks. I had to step out in faith hoping that what I was doing was the right decision. What's funny is I've realized that I'm discovering "new" parts of myself, but what's odd is that my dreams and aspirations that I'm allowing myself to finally accept and want, are not new, they are my childhood dreams that I refused to accept are possible for me because of the way I let adulting kind of dull down my expectations for life. I let myself think I am just from Maryland, what do I have to provide? I think we all suffer from that mindset in some way, shape or form.

However, I am not satisfied with that. My dreams are big, God's plan for me is even bigger and I know that with God anything is possible and the same goes for you.

God says Philippians 4:6-7

“6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”

I put that scripture because I feel like we can get caught up in how our purpose will be fulfilled, and how we will be successful or happy and so we create vision boards to manifest what we want, but all God asks us to do is bring our vision boards to him and pray for his guidance and things fall into place, but we fail to involve God in our plans, sometimes which in most cases is what’s holding us back. So I encourage all of us to give our plans to God and have an open mind.

An example of someone “ doing it afraid” would be Kanye back when he made "slow jams". Lol, I've been watching his documentary That just came out on Netflix. Im inspired because he believed in himself no matter who believed in him or not, and when we wasn’t given the chance to shine, he created his own way and showed that he deserved a chance. He basically was signed to Roc Nation, but like wasn't getting his release date so he kept working on some of the classics we know now and he had to fund his own videos and sessions, and with that time and effort he proved that he was meant to be where he was and his story needed to be told. ( I currently have mixed feelings about Kanye as a person as of today's actions but his story is his story and it is inspiring.)

Also, I recently had conversation with my sister in law that changed everything. I've been watching her step into this phase in her life where she is embracing her talents, and her purpose, and I see her stepping into new ventures and it makes me so proud because she deserves it and you can see God in her life. As were discussing her and her plans, she turns and she puts that effort into me, which meant a lot. It was almost like she had more faith in me than I had in myself, and I have received that kind of love and investment from a few people before believing it myself. That conversation changed my whole perception after a season of feeling lost even though I had just accomplished the goal of becoming a full time entrepreneur and influencer. These type of people are essential in the journey of accomplishing your dreams. I want to be able to do what my sis did for me, for you. I want you to feel encouraged to go after your dreams and fulfill your purpose for God and express yourselves creatively and be proud of who you are.

So since that day, I have started my fashion page, @bonafidebabe.us on IG and I've been posting consistently. I've also reconsidered some dreams that I had as a kid that I plan on exploring but also, I am realigning with what I want to stand for as a person and public figure. So I guess we can call this an agreement with myself lol that I'm making publicly, to hold myself accountable that I will make a difference in the world. This is pretty vulnerable for me but I hope that inspires some one to DO IT AFRAID too.